At Times...

At times it seems that no one really understand the mental prison that I've been forced to live in. At times I have to ask myself "Am I really living" this can be the life that I deal with forever. Is there anyone out there that can "hear my call."I pray but it seems that God has given up on me. In reality all I want to be is free from this prison that constantly keeps me feeling like nothing. Why me? How come I have to deal with this? I'm in desperate need of a solution because everything else doesn't seem to work. At times...my life seems to go the way I want but then I'm reminded over and over again. This is my life so accept it. But I refuse to accept something God didn't plan for me. At times...In the meantime I just plan on living and keep praying that God pulls me free from the Devil's trap. I pray that He does something fast! Can you not see the pain and hurt I deal with it daily? I don't know where to go. Im lost in a world where corruption has become what we eat everyday and all day. Where is the truth anymore. Please, Please..Lord help free me.