Sparks by Coldplay

Thankful

Thanksgiving has always been family holiday for us. 19 Thanksgivings and the saga continues...I'm thankful for all my blessings. I would of never had got this far without God. He holds the most honor. Next to him is family and friends. If I didn't have your support and love, I wouldn't be where I am today. Recently, I was placed in a situation where my friends got into an altercation and I had to decide whether I should get involved? If the situation wasn't resolved then I said most definitely I would protect what was mine. My loyalty is that deep and real. I feel my true friends would have my back as well. But this situation got me thinking about who and what would you fight for? We have to protect the ones we love. I'm glad to say that their are people in my life that I would walk with through fire. The good and bad. I want to give a shout to those friends that have been role models and good friends from day one. DJ, Khal, J-Bowden, Austin O, John Estes, Quis, Champ,Drew, ATerry and its several others. Everybody else you are much appreciated. These people keep it real and on their way to doing great things in the future. Find you a group of people that elevate you and vice versa. I'm thankful for all my teachings, blessings, God's hand on my life and the amazing people put in my life.

Closure is Good for the Soul

Yes, we finally came to some closure. I feel like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. To sum it up in a few words. She said she will always be there for me and I told her I will always be there for her. I never thought I would get to this point...Wait...I never thought we would get to this point. But I'm cool with it. She's happy and that's all that matters. Up until this point, I have done much venting to make sense of what happen. I just found myself back at square one, wanting to be with her. However, I came to the conclusion that we aren't suppose to be together at this point. Is it possible in the future? Idk...I don't make the rules. At the end the day we are content with where we are. This video maybe different from what you've heard. If you hate me for that's okay..hahaha. Its just my situation in a girl's perspective. Gwen Stefani "Cool"

'Lost and Found"

by Johnny

There is a storm in my heart
It tears my inside apart
I am bleeding and I am hurt
Like a wingless little bird

Then it turns dark
And for a moment I see
The pain that was inside of me
And on a journey I embark

In search of answers
In search of truth
In search of understanding
In search of you

My guiding star in darkness
Like a little stream in the desert
Everything about you seems flawless
But that is what causes the hurt

Your perfect features do not belong to me
You do not deserve my chains
You need to live and see
What it means to be free

So spread your wings and fly away
For I can not fulfill your dream
But if you should fall one day
I'll guide you and be that little stream

So go and discover it all
And know that wherever you go
Whatever you do and might feel
The only thing you need to do is call

Good Girls

Where the fck are you???...I been on this mission to find a good woman suitable for me. It been challenging...because I'm empty handed right now. Maybe it's partially my fault and I take notice of the fact. You know that saying " we always love those that love someone else". Well that saying has been quite true in my reality. I'm just nervous that my search would lead to another disappointment. I honestly can't take another hit like that again. So we'll see how things works out with this new girl. In meantime...I 'll listen to someone that can relate. Peace .

Outside the lines

In everyone's life we are told to stay inside the lines. Live your life accordingly to the rules. Even when we were kids we were told to color inside the lines because if we didn't our creation would be come out horrible or weak as hell.Basically life would be a mess. There have been guidelines all our lives. But when you look at life isn't always suppose to be "perfect". I'm saying life does require some order. But 24/7 is a little extreme. If we want to go outside sometimes that's fine. However, there are consequences to our actions. So just have that in mind. We need to spend life doing things that make US happy and not just others. Live for yourself and let everything come after. Make you happy. I'm discovering that now. Sometimes it better on the other side in the words of John Mayer. If we always stay with what we know we never grow and experience. Who knows that new thing we may encounter will bring something we have been missing our whole lives. Its worth the chance to see life in a new perspective. Don't let fear destroy your goals and keep you from finding those things that are real and that have substance. Welcome to the real world...no such thing!!

November 4th 2008

The day that changed my life ENTIRELY. Instead of lying outside of history, I became apart of something tremendous. I am history. With one single vote for my role model. I started living inside the realm of history. I didn't vote for him because he was black. What a ignorant and shallow way of thinking. He appealed to me in a different way. This president had character, integrity, and vision which I really admired. He was just different from what I've seen over the recent years. He was quite captivating. I remember waking up on this day. It was cold and the lines long. But I fought pass the sleep and selfishness. I wouldn't dare let this opportunity pass me up. It's really important to count for something and that was the feeling I felt after I finished voting. Absolutely thrilled for the outcome. The day progressed and he started racking in the states. When I saw Georgia and Florida turn blue my heart jumped out my chest. I knew at that particular moment that he had won the election. I heard screams outside and the TV blazing with congratulatory applause. It sent a shock through my body. I was electrified. Everybody was happy and shouting. This was the best moment in my life. The experience was like a chain reaction. I remember everybody that I spoke with celebrating his election. It was amazing to have the whole world in unison celebrating this one historical moment.Just Great! I didn't understand at time but when my good friend, Rico shed tears because of the news it became quite clear. This man is going to change our lives. I just saw an documentary entitled "By the People: The Election of Barack Obama" which was really inspirational. He worked hard and fought all the odds against him. He preserved and he won! After watching the documentary a year later, I can honestly say I felt like I did on this day. Truly inspired to go and accomplish my own dreams. I wanted to add to the history I already became apart of. I want to personally say that you President Barack Obama. You've have inspired everyone that voted for you. You've made a believer out of us. It was an epic moment in history I will never forget and neither will the world!

XU Love

Xavier University of Louisiana, home the gold rush nuggets and the moldy food(one of the perks).Xavier University had changed me for the better and I've grown as a result. So for me to forget where I came from is ludicrous. XU gave me many experiences and fun times. The thing I take from it all is the wonderful friends I made my first year of college. And I miss every single one of them. I actually spoke to one of my friends last night. Its been awhile. It was good catching up with her. She gave me all the information on who joined fraternities and sororities from our class. I was surprised but mostly because I wasn't there to celebrate their crossing. So congratulations to you all that made it. When I look back at it and compare it to now. We have grown so much and changed positively. I have the chance to look at it from a bird's view and appreciate it all. I met some of the greatest people while attending Xavier and I'm grateful and humble that I had the pleasure. I wish you all much success on your own personally journeys. Everybody their hold it down for me. Peace&Love