Living in Retrospect

I often find myself thinking about the past things and events. Why? I don't know....Sometimes its good to remember how things use to be. I guess Im just a traditional kind of guy. When you have those days where it seems like the world is against you. The past seems to provide some kind of relief and comfort for me. I find myself remembering the things that have effected me the greatest. Whether its music, food, or family and friends. "Man I miss the good ol days". Now, I'm telling the younger generation "well back in my day..." and I share my stories of the past. In all honesty, it makes me happy.

Refusal of Stupidity

Lately, I been interested in President Obama. Is it because I voted for him? Honestly, yes it is. It was the first time I had the chance to vote in any election. I believe in his plan about change and making America better. I'm not sure all his plans and I don't agree with entirely everything he does. But I feel he deserve to be our president. He at least deserves that right? Its just been a lot of nay-Sayers that seem to make his job harder than what has to be. Its cool to voice your opinion. This is America,home of the free. Do as you please. Its just crazy when you have people that are acting stupidly. There are people that want to harm his well-being( i.e assassinations and other threats). The thing that got on my nerves was when some people didn't want President Obama to speak to their children about staying in school and being successful in life. It wasn't a bad thing. I was rather inspired about him "ENCOURAGING" the youth to stay in school. Did he tell the child to go jump off the bridge? No,absolutely not. I just didn't understand why people were making a big issue about it. I know the United States isn't perfect and there a some that don't want to see what the value of an education will do for them. However, there are some that believe education is important and to be successful you need to be inspire by those that have gone before you and did magnificent things in this world. President Obama is one of those figures. So I applaud him for doing what he feels will change this world. I have one question America when did we decide that educating our youth was a negative thing? We seriously need to do some soul-search if that's the case. I refuse to be a part of a society that doesn't want me to succeed in life and be more than a statistic. I'm sorry but that's not the life for me. I'm more intelligent than that. Stop making excuses not to be great. And don't let others determine the way your life goes. If that happens you are not living for yourself. Make your own choices and decisions and don't regret them... Wake-up before its to late!!!!!!

She Was My World

Imagine being a young kid that didn't understand much of anything. I only knew how to play and live life limitless. When I was younger,about 10 years old or so, I live with my grandma that did everything for me. She would cook, devote time to me developing my writing skills,and most of all she introduced me to God. Before then I was just a kid that didn't know much about religion. Although at the time I didn't appreciate all the choir rehearsals and attending Sunday school, I do now. My grandma was the epitome of good and real. She would touch the souls of anyone that she encountered. She had wisdom that would help you sort out any issues you faced.The thing I remember most is that she always came through no matter what. I truly respected that about her. Having seen that for myself, I can say its rubbed off on me. So I thank her because her kindness, concern, and strength help me to pursue medicine and want to help people. On the bad days and good days is when I miss her the most because I can't share it with her. I wish she was here to see how much I've grown as a person and how much she has contributed to my growth. It's all the simple things that she has given me that keeps me celebrating her memory. I long to hear your voice again and tell me "well done my son". Ernestine D, Williams was/is my world. Nothing will ever change it.... Hold on to the things that matter most.




Until me meet again
Rest in Peace, I love you

KJ-thanks for the inspiration

The Future In Somebody...pt.2

I'm like damn I can't even wait till I get back to doing what I do best. I see everybody doing their school thing and trying to get somewhere higher. I truly respect that about people. So all the people I fcks with the long way..my bad the strong way.(Dang can't seem to keep up.)Keeping doing what you do. With that said I can't wait till next semester. Here I come Columbus State. I'm ready to do the damn thing. And "get closer to my dreams". In the mean time, hopefully I will find a job and volunteer at the hospital. Everybody that supports black men changing the world or just me wish me success on my way to greatness.

"The road to Hell is paved with Good Intentions"

I was watching a show today and and they mention this quote. I wanted to analyze the meaning behind it. Its interesting. I also wanted to know what have I done in my life that may run parallel with this saying. I did my research on it and I found out that it meant that we have good intentions but result is something unexpected or bad. Well from the Tv show this saying was used with a religious meaning involving God....So I ask my "The road to Hell is paved with Good Intentions"? To me it sounds like we try to do Godly things but end straying away from what we intended to do in the beginning. We want to be more like God but our lusting and desires seem to get in the way. We chose our desires and what we want over God. And I'm not an exception to this. There are many times where I let what I want and my desires take the steering wheel. Where it should be God that's conducting me. I'm not perfect but that doesn't mean I shouldn't try to aim for perfection. I ask myself when am I going to stop and let God be a part of my life? When am I going to let the things in this world come second and Him first? I just pray that God forgives me and through it all He continues to shed His love and Grace on me. Lord, I sorry for all my good intentions that went wrong. I pray that you bless and help me gain focus so that I can see You and all the wonderful things you want to do for me. Please don't give up me because I refuse to give up on becoming more like you. Continue to strengthen me and lead me down the path of righteousness. Lord, please relinquish all the negativity and keep the devil from touching a child of Yours. Just continue to walk with me for the rest of my life and I promise that I will be committed to a life that You want for me. I believe...I believe...I believe.

Have It All Together

Some would say I have it all together. Well to tell the truth, I have problems just like all the others. My life is far from perfect but I try to be successful in all I do. So who are you to tell me I’m not good enough. When it’s the ignorant shit you do that inhibits your growth. Strive for success not perfection because I don’t want to lose my chances of being wrong. When your wrong you grow. I become more human as a result. Singing the same song of my imperfects, to which I belong. My flaws show that I’m a human being and I just an average guy in a sense. Some would say I have it all together…I say I don’t

31seconds

Me:Hello? Hello?...
Yea...

Person: How are you?

Me: I'm good. Everything is going perfect.

Person: You need to go back to Atlanta.......

End of conversation!!!!!!!!

Wow a whole 31second conversation with a person that told me to leave their house and go back to Atlanta. So what now I'm not welcomed in your house anymore? Damn!!!. That's funny because I distinctly remember you saying " this was my house too". I guess not. But its cool bruh. I don't need you to do anything for me. With or without you I'm going to be successful. Sometimes I question whether I'm even a part of your genetic make-up. From this previous talk you treat me like a stranger. You ask me what I want from you? Well, I want you to do your job for once. When will the every 2yr conversations end? In no way, shape or form I don't deserve that from you. Growing up, I had no positive role model to help develop me into the man I suppose to be. She tries to provide but I tell her that's not her job... to be a rock. But no matter what, I know she will always be my #1 fan.

O yea this PERSON is my ol man.....Thanks for being a great father and doing your job o so well!!!! No hard feelings...Do what you do. Peace&Love

Welcome to the Free Life

I remember the dayz when I was a young dude. My life was consumed with Pokemon,Pinky and the Brain, Nickelodeon,sleep and o yeah that thing called school. I remember just living the life with any major worries....If there were any, it was "did I miss my Saturday cartoons, what games am I goin to get from my game-boy". That was the life. Playing games with my friends praying that the streetlights did't come on. if they did grandma would of handle it. Life back then seem so limit-less. I could stretch my imagination to infinity and be perfectly content with it. No regulations, no government, just free. I remember just living life without bills, car notes, student loans, and everything that doesn't become free after you turn 18yrs old. Once you leave the free life world, there's no 100% comeback. There might be a 20% chance that you live life free but when you become an adult you(we) have to realize that being a grown-up is extremely expensive. Its quite amazing how much stuff you have to put up with. All the decisions you have that will determine the rest of your life. And those decisions and choices are high prices. The only thing is when you decide things you are taking a gamble and hope that they work out for the best. When they don't you feel that you wasted valuable money and that's money you can't get back. However, I wish the free world existed for adults but somehow it doesn't . As a result, I'm starting to see that as I grow up in this expensive world!

The Future In Somebody...wtf

VS





What should I decide?....I have not the slightest clue.
Gotta make some moves....soon!!!!