Silly of Me(Love's fool)

Dear, Marie-ah


Its crazy how you think things will be the same when in reality its quite the opposite. I been a fool for 2yrs now. I thought maybe what we had would blossom into something more. Instead, its just died and withered away. Yes, it was my fault for waiting to long to tell you how I feel. Now, I suffer the consequences. Through your actions I see that there is someone else. It destroys my soul and I can't let you go. We have entirely to much shit that we been through. It's just not fair when you take our years and replace it with someone's minutes. Again I take fault for not going beyond the best friend level with you. But somewhere in your mind, you had to know that I was falling for you. It was hard to be your opposite and not ponder those thoughts for you. I sit here and see how happy you are without me. I'm crushed because I suppose to be the man standing in the pictures with you. I'm suppose to be the shoulder you cry on when you have those bad days. Its suppose to me!!! I know that I'm acting selfish but I don't care. I love you the most but you don't see that. The thing that shocked me was that I was no longer a priority in your life. Our friendship became association and that didn't even turn out well. I became a burden. Someone to push to the side and just be there. We spent months without any communication and just like a fool I wanted to salvage a friendship and keep you near. I've come to the realization that what we have is not healthy for me. I don't think I can take being just a friend in your life. So I decided to let it go...I don't know when but it has to happen. I realized that sooner than later might not work either because I can't(refuse) to wait for something that may not happen. I think the reason I;m hanging on is because there was no closure when I did tell you how I feel. You said "I need time to find myself" which I gave you. I just didn't know during that time you would find Him to be "that person for you". Our future is unclear and I'm not totally sure what I want to do... Silly Silly Silly ME!!!!




Love always, the friend