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Happy Father's Day!

Today is Father's Day. And I have a feeling in my heart to resent my father! What is it that makes me not want to forgive? I don't know. Maybe my longing for wanting to have a relationship with him and him not making an effort to have a relationship with me. I know the love exists but its just words over the phone. I probably resent him because I can't let go. I want what everybody has. But in life nothing is perfect. Its a hard reality. I think my Father and I relationship would always be a work in progress! I'm trying to forgive but it feels so difficult sometimes. However, I'm thankful that God has placed many people in my life that I look up to as mentors and Big brothers. I appreciative for the support and advice that they continue to give me. With that said, Happy Father's Day to all the great people in my life. Life would be extremely hard if I didn't have your support. Thank you! I want to give a special shout out to my Mother, who has always tried to find a way for us to live like Kings. Thank you, Ma. You are appreciated! I will try to work on my relationship with my Father. I can't make any promises. I WILL meet him half way. But just know all is forgiven! I wish you the best on today. Happy Father's Day to you!

Another semester...Another school year!!!

I don't know where to start. I feel like I been beat down and left to lie on the ground. This semster felt great to start off. I embarked on a new journey and grew from the previous semester. I appreciate everything that has happened this far. Even though I'm disappointed in myself for not seriously committing to my academics this year, I can't let that stop me from going on. I have to keep growing and living. However, there will be some changes in the coming weeks. I'm getting back to neutral after the news I found out. Prior to this unfortunate news, I was battling a decision whether Columbus or New Orleans was where I needed to be. I came to that decision through a mentor, and my Brother, Dave, that Columbus was the best home for me. Academically I feel New Orleans would have made sense but that was just one pro compared to the pros of staying in Columbus. So my decision is made. I'm home. I know the journey WILL NOT be easy but I will fight till I win. It has to be better past this point. I know God wouldn't put more on me than I couldn't bear. I have to remind myself of that. It so hard to look up when your looking down. Trying to find that smile is more difficult than you think. I digress. All that to say that I'm learning and growing with each day. I accepted a new position that I was quite intimdated by but I'm taking a leap out of faith. I'm praying that God won't let me fall. As of a few weeks ago, I am currently the President of the Theta Beta Chapter of Alpha Phi Alpha Fraternity Incorpated. Its difficult to step in this role. But I know with me, I would never have gotten to this point. So Im working on my contentness with this position. Its a huge role but I remember that I can't be afraid to fail. You all wish me luck. In additon to this new role and journey, I changed my major to Spanish with a concentration in premedicine. I figured that I should do something that makes me happy and not half-way happy. Prior to this change I was Chemistry/premed. I liked the major but I reached a conclusion it just wasn't for me. So I changed it. Those are the major changes this semester. I pray that everything works out for the best. I discover today that I've haven't forgiven somebody ; my father. And that I constantly been searching for a mentor to fill his position ALL my life. I lacked having my father in my life and I guess I blamed him for not being there. I have to forgive in order to move forward. Its funny beacause I felt that I did forgive him. But maybe that forgiveness was temporary. So here it goes....I forgive you Dad for everything. I can't continue to blame you for the past so I'm good. I'll let go and let God. Thank you God for speaking to me today. I don't know my future but I just pray that my dreams and hopes don't fade away. I'm trusting in you to make a way! I have faith that you will. I believe in my heart and confess with my mouth you are real and that I'm saved. Lord, guide me throughout the rest of the year and allow me to gain knowledge and more focusness this upcoming school year.

Overnight Celebrity..#goodtimes

"The Test of a Man"

The test of Man is the fight that he makes
The grit that he daily shows
The way that he stands upon his feet and takes
life's numerous bumps and blows

A coward can smile where there's not to fear.
And nothing his progress bars.
But it takes a Man to stand and cheer while the other fellow stars.

It isn't the victory after all,
But the Fight that a brother makes.
A Man when driven against the wall still stands erect and
take the blows of fate.

With his head held high.
Bleeding, bruised, and pale is the Man who will win and
Fate defied for he isn't afraid to fail

THE TEST OF A MAN

Searching for Normalcy

Wow! I haven't been here in a minute. The fall semester has been a interesting to say the least. I have encountered obstacles and triumphs and they have aided in my growth. I'm starting to live more. I'm taking more chances and learning from my mistakes. I use to say that I felt more mature than most of the people I knew because I was focused solely on school and academics. However, quickly, as I reached college, I realized thats not the only thing that makes you mature. It's takes a man to stand up and take on roles that he is not use to. Long story short, the world of maturity is quite larger than I envisioned. So I ask myself am I ready to grow into the person I'm ready to be and the person I need to be? YES!!! I nervous about the future but I'm TIRED of being stationary. Being in park for most of your life starts to weigh on you. I will fight through anything that becomes a problem for me. I have to. There is no choice. Ready for a change! I probably say this a lot but it REALLY is time. I will be 21 in less than a month! Its time to step and accept good change. One thing I saw I lost sight in this semester was my faith in God and I forgot to preserve our relationship. That is one thing I will work on as I come into the new year!..."You may fail but fall still fighting. Don't give up whatever you do. Eyes front, head to the finish SEE IT THROUGH". One my favorite poems by Edgar Guest. I will remember these words and keeping fighting till I win. As I reminisce over this past semester, I find myself wanting to search for normalcy. So I will appreciate this break and the time with family and friends. "Aint nothing better" thats what they say. I won't make any promises about this new change I plan to implement in my life because change requires time. I just want to get better. I'm feeling inspired about everything. The people I encountered in these few months have something to do with it. God, Family, Work, Phraternity is what I have my eye's set on! I will continue to move onward and upward! I made it and I'm here!

Keep My Goal Alive

After talking with a friend yesterday I came to a realization the only way to stay focus is to speak into existence the thing I want to accomplish.

She said "Bring it into existence."

My reply " I have put my goal into existence..That's the only way I won't become wayward on the journey!"

I start today and I make my goal(s) known to myself and I get it done! I can't see myself doing anything else! I feel if I post the schools I want to attend for Medical School I'm strengthening my focus and I won't become lost again. Something gotta give and I pray that this is the straw that erupts a change in me!

Top 7 Medical School(subject to change)
1) Medical College of Georgia
2) Meharry Medical College
3) Howard University
4) Morehouse College
5) Emory University
6)Georgetown University
7)University of Alabama(Birmingham)
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Well alright, I will keep you all that listen posted. Its going to be a journey but I willing to put in the work! "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me"..Word!